Today was a rough day

I have gotten so far behind on my ideas for blogs, that it's too daunting a task to even consider when Xavier is crying because he wants to be held -- making typing difficult -- which is pretty often lately. (For example, I started this post at 1:46 p.m. and have just finished it now.) So I'm going to start slowly, and post some things that might not be as clean as I like my final drafts to be, but will be finished nonetheless. Here's one thought.

People keep asking if he's a good baby, and he is -- we love him and think he's the best baby ever, obviously. But I've been thinking today that he's not as laid back as we originally thought. He's been crying pretty often lately. He's not usually happy when he's just lying in his crib or his Pack 'n' Play. Sometimes he is, but not typically. So he cries when he wants to be held, which is usually whenever someone isn't holding him. And he cries when he's being held in a different way than he'd like -- if you're holding him like a baby, for instance, and he wants to stretch his neck muscles and look up over your shoulder. He cries when he's hungry: about every two-and-a-half hours. He cries when his diaper is too full. And in the past couple of days, he's been crying when he has to poop but can't, which I hope isn't a sign of bad things to come.

I wouldn't call it colic or anything (and we're crossing our fingers hardcore that it doesn't get to that point), so I know we have it better than a lot of new parents. But it's hard when you have to sit and listen to your baby cry all the time, especially when you're home alone. Or your mother-in-law is on the phone and you can't get him to stop. Or you're trying to pick up some things at Kohl's and he's screaming his head off. It's embarrassing. And sad, and frustrating. It's only a matter of time before he has a crying bout and I begin my own.

So I have quite a few other blog posts that I've started and intend to go back to. I just have to be patient with Xavier right now, and hope that this fussiness passes, and I hope that you can be patient with me in the interim.